boo...i hate how every other day i end up sick in some way or another...i don't remember the last day that my body felt 100% alright...the whole weekend has either been spent at work or at home laying on the couch trying to find different ways to avoid not throwing up...few of which succeeded.
moodswings need to stop popping up around every corner and hitting me in the face with a baseball bat of shitty emotion...one of the things i love about myself is i generally feel like shit for no reason...nothing will happen but i will still want to die. hahaha! balls. fuck this town...i just love how people belittle you when they find out you're from ohio...and even more so when they find out you like the Browns. today was the home-opener and the Browns lost 34-7 to the fucking steelers. and of course i cannot wait to go into work and never hear the end of it. i don't even care about football...i just care about the Browns...if that makes any sense.
trying to change is annoying...drinking nothing but water is annoying. the other day my mom called me and i was in a particularly shitty mood...she told me to buy myself some pizza and feel better. instead i used the money i would have spent on pizza and bought myself the Lolita audiobook from amazon. so far Irons uses the voice once when he says "insolent hag." it's beautiful.
i should probably do some of the cleaning i said i would do this weekend...but i have just felt like complete shit and i fell asleep during the game today and didn't wake back up until a little bit ago. fuck tashina for wanting to come home tonight instead of tomorrow morning.
oh feelings, you tricky devils...why must you toy with me so?